12:43 PM
Working for a Living EEEEEEKKKKK!

Woke up with a horrendously tight neck and shoulders and a knot of pain above my left eye. I'd had all these weird dreams about *huge* spider webs and also about Alias! Except I was in the mom role but when Sidney was a child and she was a boy and not named Sidney :) and Jack was the traitor, leaving us behind to go to Russia before he was caught. And it was all convoluted and messy and I was trying to stop him and I think Vaughn was there but grown up like in the show and trying to help me stop Jack.

So I took a Fiorinal and read Kristen's reminder to send the email (I love reminders, I couldn't live without them! :)) I waited a bit because I felt so groggy and then I tried calling and all I got were all these non-helpful menus and so I gave up and called the agency and explained what I wanted and she said great idea! and gave me his email address.

I drafted something up and read it to Mom and she loved it and I sent it! So now the meds have kicked in and I feel better for having sent the email, like I have a bit of control over the process. That's a really big thing for me, feeling like I have some control. I don't want to be a boss so I don't want all the control, just some, just enough to not feel completely powerless.

And I just got a call from the agency, they had sent over a couple other people to interview and one of them said he said it would be a three day work week until they got the new surgery center up and running and the agency person wanted to know if he'd said anything to me about that and I said no, in fact he made it sound like I'd be doing some extra work so he could focus on the new surgery center. But three day work weeks for awhile would be okay with me, the money would still be enough that I could pay my bills, as long as it became full time later, I'd be fine with it (and truthfully easing back into full time work that way would be great for me, it's going to be a huge adjustment for me to go from being home most of the time to working five days a week all of a sudden...)

But one good bit of info, it looks like he talked to me the longest so far and in the most detail, everyone else had short interviews, 15 to 20 minutes and I was there at least 30 minutes.

And he said he's making a decision THIS AFTERNOON!!!! EEEEEEKKKKKK!

God, I want this job and I won't take no for answer, God, do you hear me? :)