06:04 PM
La Familia Avoidance

So my mother caved. Instead of dealing with the problem, or letting my stepdad deal with it, she wrote a check for what he would pay and then wrote a personal check for the rest of what was owed to me. Ah well, it is her decision, if she chooses to stay in the middle and to spend her money, that's her choice.

I feel better for having stuck to my guns, for keeping in mind that I am worth what was due, that I'm good enough to deserve to get paid and not short myself or my own worth. And I need that right now, I need to remember my own worth in going to temp agencies and telling them I'm the best one to send out on their job placements.

It's kind of frustrating with stepdad, he thinks he got away with shorting me, that he can determine my worth and not acknowledge that does owe me all of that money. But if he feels he won that argument, then he may not feel the need to get nasty about future bills, to pay less or stiff me entirely. So that's okay, I guess.

Family! Maybe we would be better off like in Brave New World, all belonging to everyone...although maybe it's a good thing I'm having all these problems with my stepdad instead of my real dad. Since he died young, he's always been idealized, always that perfect loving relationship I would have had, but who knows, he might have been cold and harsh, always telling me I wasn't good enough like my brother's dad or maybe just absent, divorced from my mom and living in another state and hardly talking to me. Then again, maybe he'd support me financially like my mom does with my brother! :)

Oh well, at least my cats really love me....

At least as long as I give them tuna cat food, which reminds me I need to go to the grocery store!